The Weirdo Zone

one week from now, i'll be finishing up work, going home, then flying to melbourne for the weekend which i hope will be great fun.

ARTIST: Rodgers and Hammerstein
TITLE: People Will Say We're In Love

Laurie:
Why do they think of stories that link my name with yours
Why do the neighbors chatter all day behind their doors
I know a way to prove what they say is quite untrue
Here is the gist, a practical list of dont's for you

Don't throw bouquets at me
Don't please my folks too much
Don't laugh at my jokes too much
People will say we're in love
Don't sigh and gaze at me
Your sighs are so like mine
Your eyes mustn't glow like mine
People will say we're in love
Don't start collecting things
Give me my rose and my glove
Sweetheart, they're suspecting things
People will say we're in love

Curly:
Some people claim that you are to blame as much as I
Why do you take the trouble to bake my favorite pie
Granting your wish I carved our initials on a tree
Just keep a slice of all the advice you give so free

Don't praise my charm too much
Don't look so vain with me
Don't stand in the rain with me
People will say we're in love

Don't take my arm so much
Don't keep your hand in mine
Your hand feels so grand in mine
People will say we're in love

Don't dance all night with me
'Til the stars fade from above
They'll see it's alright with me
People will say we're in love

this can be found here --> http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/32792715/ with a cool image ^^

but here it is, below:

As I'm walking down the street
Funny people I do meet
But every which and way I turn
I only see you

As I lie awake at night
Clutching my pillow tight
I can't sleep for the life of me
Your voice keeps me up

And so I just have to say

Baby you're my everything
I just can't do without
Those lips and eyes and laugh and touch
I'm living in a drought
So baby come back home to me
I'm so ill and you're the remedy
You're my truth to set me free
My little habibi

I go to work and try to find
Something to busy and placate my mind
But I'm still 10 minutes behind
You used to keep me on time

On a friday night the music is loud
I keep seeing your face in the crowd
My heart is set, my hands are bound
I can't say it's all fine

So believe me when I say

Baby you're my everything
I just can't do without
Those lips and eyes and laugh and touch
I'm living in a drought
So baby come back home to me
I'm so ill and you're the remedy
You're my truth to set me free
My little habibi

I know I gotta change
But I can't do it alone
Babe I need your help
Or my fate is set in stone

(solo)

Baby you're my everything
I just can't do without
Those lips and eyes and laugh and touch
I'm living in a drought
So baby come back home to me
I'm so ill and you're the remedy
You're my truth to set me free
My little habibi

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/31192682/

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Cars

"Pain"

I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.

Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]
It's a lie. A kiss with open eyes
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are hurried times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.

I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Every time I quit

Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]

I can't let it bother me.

[Guitar Solo]

It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]

Takes my pain
Takes my pain
Takes my pain
Takes my pain away

JAMES BLUNT LYRICS

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

I am no longer on any of Kitty's sims, cutting myself off from her deliberately. I hope I'm doing the right thing.

Could it be any harder
THE CALLING


You left me with goodbye and open arms
A cut so deep I don't deserve
You were always invincible in my eyes
The only thing against us now is time


Chorus:
Could it be any harder to say goodbye and without you,
Could it be any harder to watch you go, to face what's true
If I only had one more day

I lie down and blind myself with laughter
A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing
And how I wish that I could turn back the hours
But I know I just don't have the power

Chorus

I'd jump at the chance,
We'd drink and we'd dance
And I'd listen close to your every word,
As if it's your last, I know it's your last,
Cause today, oh, you're gone

Could it be any harder (fade away, fade away, fade away, ooh)
Could it be any harder (fade away, fade away, fade away, ooh)
Could it be any harder to live my life without you
Could it be any harder, I'm all alone, I'm all alone


Like sand on my feet,
The smell of sweet perfume
You stick to me forever, baby
And I wish you didn't go
I wish you didn't go, I wish you didn't go away
To touch you again,
With life in your hands,
It couldn't be any harder.. harder.. harder

a new look for my LJ

I was looking around the options so I could be more 'knowledgable' when I teach blogging with livejournal on April 1, and I reckon this looks cool for now.

PETE MURRAY LYRICS

"Better Days"

And I saw it coming
I saw emptiness and tragedy
And I felt like running
So far away
But knew I had to stay
And I know when I'm older
I look back and I still feel the pain
I know I'll be stronger and I know I'll be fine
For the rest of my days

I've seen better days
Put my face in my hands
Get down on my knees and I pray to God
Hope he sees me through till the end

I noticed the smallest things
But I didn't notice the change
It was hot in the morning
Then it turned so cold, twas the end of the day
There was no condensation I just felt like I was in space
I needed my friends there I just turned around
They were gone without a trace

I've seen better days
Put my face in my hands
Get down on my knees and I pray to God
Hope he sees me through till the end

Now I have just started
And I won't be done till the end
There's nothing I have lost
That was once placed upon the palm of my hands
And all of these hard times
Have faded round the bend
Now that I'm wiser I cannot wait
Till I can help my friends

I've seen better days
Put my face in my hands
Get down on my knees and I pray to God
Hope he sees me through till the end

Seen better days
Put my face in my hands
Get down on my knees and I pray to God
Hope he sees me through till the end

Seen better
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na [x4]

i am really really really fed up with crazy americans

like i need to detach...

LINKIN PARK LYRICS

"Don't Stay"

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go

[Chorus:]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone

[Chorus]

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away

With no apologies

[Chorus]

Don't stay

Don't stay

Star Trek VI - The Undiscovered Country

Kirk: Spock, you wanna know something? Everyone is human

Spock: I find that remark...insulting

there's nothing quite as scary as waking up in the middle of the night and finding you've depleted a large amount of blood circulation to your foot, so it's gone very numb, and you spend the next 10 mins making sure you can feel it.

ok never mind. it seems i have a xanga anyway. must have made it and then forgot about it by sheer force of will, so as to forget something else horrible i did (i wonder if i killed anyone?)

why does everyone have a xanga? if i get bored enough i might just make a xanga, which is bad. i hardly write in this thing as it is =X maybe i should just make one anyway, i know shaz would like it

I must not let myself be bullied by my players

I must not let myself be bullied on my own sim

I must stand up for myself and my sim's image

I must be prepared to break some friendships if I want to do what is right by myself

I must realise already that friendships with Aries people Never Ever Works unless I let them walk all over me

I must realise that while a friendship is about compromise, my sim is not up for compromise at all, because it is MY sim, MY pain, MY sleepless nights, MY responsibility

I must fix the problem soon

I must not forget the first four points on this list.

so here's how it is

online people, are they as real as real life people, or do a majority of them perpetually lie?

I think the problem is with real people, there cant be five different versions of someone easily. it takes well practiced lying and control of facial expression, and even so i can usually see through them. its all about what someone says, how they look, what they're doing, how they react to things, facial expressions and how long they pause before saying something.

i don't like being lied to, even though i lie like a bat out of hell sometimes, though i'm trying to change it. so basically i'm being hypocritical here, and i have no right to complain or say anything, but when people lie to me, and i find out, it really bloody pisses me off.

i mean sure, some people have a reason to lie, good reasons, but most of the time its no reason except they call me friend and then don't tell me whats wrong. they say 'no, its fine. i'm fine, everything is fine, i'm happy, life is grand', which is more than them not wanting to talk about it. they COULD SAY 'no, i don't want to talk about it Cars' sure, fine, then i change the subject and we move on. But NO, they LIE, THEY LIE TO MY FUCKING FACE.

how am i meant to trust someone who lies to me? I'm so deeply involved in a lot of sims with this person too, so great, there goes my friendship circle.

maybe i am blowing up over this, but it goes deeper than i'm mentioning here. the lies cut deep, into this trust i have and now i hardly talk to this person about anything but simming.

so much drama, and all i want to do is write, and have fun.

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ok, so i was being a bit dramatic in my last post. cmon, this is me, i am le always dramatic on this LJ. its a LJ, i'm MEANT to be dramatic damn you =p

anyway

SB60: its going a bit better, now that things are happening, i dont feel so strangled. Nikki is really busy lately not just with babies but with uni as well. imagine if she worked as well! holy jeez

Hiro: yay, we're moving along and i can be funny. all good

Kyushu: again with the moving, and being funny, and moving, and posting, and moving, and people having fun. did i mention moving?

Walkabout: so my sim was awarded Bronze Unit Merit award for Jan 2005. =) this is a good thing, and i will not care wtf anyone says about my crew not deserving it, because fuck me, they DO deserve it. they're the best frickin crew ever, and i couldn't ask for more.

DS5: I should join properly one day, i'm kinda in limbo atm...

Rift: still stopped. i think kitty is waiting, or busy, or both

so the sims are good this week, aah but for how long? only time will tell, so tune in next week on Cars' sims...saga...

so i wrote this new poem http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/29239932/ because i'm pining after someone. i wish i could reach stanza 6 so i can start back again at stanza 1. god i hate love. it rips at my insides and makes me do stupid things, and freakin hell, i wish it would just go away.

i know, i know, we can't live without love. but bloody hell it'd be nice if we could.

Also, Shaz and Kaz are leavink =( going back to Perth and Melbourne, respectively, so now I have to find my own reasons for going outside aside from work and uni. hopefully this wont be too hard. hopefully. I'll miss them though.

I miss having someone...

man, i haven't written here for a whiel...hmm, lets see.

sims:
SB60: omg, could people be any slower in a JP? and that freakin hermat! bloody oath, i could kill that player, frickin bump around in my shuttlebay and cause damage and try to make everyone else look stupid. grrrr

Hiro: poor bri, no one's posting on his ship. now he knows how i feel most of the time x-D but seriously, we're nearly there

Kyushu: stop, start, stop, start start, stop stop stop....start? start. its like a faulty car

Walkabout: lost interest in this mission which tara is running about half a month ago, forced myself back into it. I think i wont be giving tara the helm anymore, she has too many fingers in too many different pies and doesnt always concentrated on what i need her to (aka my ship). but hey, everything is a learning experience. next mission i'll be relying more on chuck, so that should be an experience. PLEASE GOD LET THIS MISSION END SOON, before kitty leaves. kitty leaving is FUCKEN BAD. I really hope chuck and nikki are better in the next mission, because my 'sim of the year' is fucken falling apart.

DS5: I'm going to play a blind man with a telepathic dog soon. it makes sense, really

Rift: seems to have come to a stop with everyone waiting on kitty to tell us what to do. shrug.

Tranq: another stop, with everyone just...not posting. damn fuckers.

sigh, sims give me so much heartache (the walky especially lately. pisses me off so much, makes me want to cry sometimes)

real life:

lately i've been working a lot at the library (money to cover car registration and inspection, yay!), but i've still come to notice some things:

Jen is a bitch
Shailee is really nice
Dula is really cool too (shame about his cat though, that was a real bummer to a good night)
Luke can't sing
My parents are really cool when they're not bugging me
I need to learn chinese off of mum
I need to learn to drive more relaxed
I need to fucken do some laundry

I need to remember what its like to be in love.